Anybody Seriously Want To Tell About Stress But Can't Unless Asked

I've read a lot of articles concerning the horrible feelings about having to reveal stress details to your t, although I hope this isn't absolutely insane. I am dealing with the contrary.

I have many 'issues' that I am conscious of from an emotionally/verbally abusive step father to a grownup that I trusted being a maternal figure that revealed she had other tips for that I want to talk, but cannot connection in high-school... And what is daily becoming more of a guarantee that I have repressed very early neglect (I have always had terrors but am not reading his and my style in my own head which isn't nice change of words)... I've NEVER told information on some of this stuff. I have stated to two people that "anything" happened with this person I respected which was the level. Photographs, short movie in my own head of the ones I recall now these voices of what I think plague me.

I'm working with a t and also have discovered that I can not tell him ANYTHING if he does not ask directly. I've told him this and he is proficient at looking to ask me questions. The problem is, I also can not tell him what to ask. it is much like I am banned to just openly tell things-but I'm allowed to answer, although I understand it might seem totally insane. He's gone back and forth about 'handling' trauma then I think I'm so quiet about things happening he does not think they're and starts to think we must get another way. I get so angry after I hear him wish to quit hope about ever getting relief and get really frustrated and talk about not addressing the injury especially. It's like I UNDERSTAND I've to obtain these details out but I can't tell him that. I think he's also worried I can't manage working with the trauma specifically as a result of my anxiety attacks, but I really don't know how to adjust any one of this. He discusses wanting to take action with as small depth and stress as you can and that I have learn about all these new techniques to deal with PTSD without detailed processing, but I would like it bad.

Does this sound right to ANYONE? I know I'd be VERY embaressed to state the items that I expect it isnot something ill making me wish and I would need to to... But I'm so worried we'll spend years because he thinks I am afraid, tiptoeing across the facts and that I am seriously attempting to pour the beans. I wish I can tell him this, however it is not allowed.